hmm. im really like getting younger lah... josh and xiang just asked me out... and i just said yes! oh man haha... ok nvm. they are sweet kids... but i will feel very old. im such a push over ok... keep getting bullied all the time by my cell members... during cell on sunday when lijia wasnt there... i was squashed ok. it was kill evelyn time indeed! they ar nice and all... but i dunno lah... jac kinda pissed me off abit... i know as a leader must love them and stuff... and i do love her but shes really too much sometimes lah... wad am i supposed to do when she doesnt want to participate in bible study and games oso dun want... just want to sit there and act cool. does she know that she thinks that shes really happening and rebellious and cool and stuff when noone else thinks so? i duno lah. i forgot how it feels to b sec 1 but i sure wasnt like her... just need to pray for understanding... its not tt i dun like her u noe... shes fun to be with and all but sometimes u can really kill her!! cant wait till lijia comes back... i think i really qt failure haha... cant even lead cell grp by myself. hiahz. and not say i nv had any experience b4... i was an intern since sec 2 for goodness sakes. wds wrong with me i oso dunno. i dun want to be a push over anymore :(